Moving Pictures

One year ago today, Dina and I held our breath in a darkened exam room as our doctor studied an ultrasound glowing on a screen overhead.

Years of tests, procedures and crushing losses convinced us that this attempt, possibly our last, had failed as well.

“There is a pregnancy in the uterus,” the doctor intoned as we tried to comprehend the nebulous white blob on the screen. He continued to speak but a fog descended and I only remember hearing him call out, “Have a great pregnancy!” as we danced out the door.

We celebrated. For about 10 minutes. And then we packed up the truck, drove to western Massachusetts and said goodbye. That is how my year at Farm School started.

And now it’s over – a year has passed. To be honest, I’m still putting my thoughts together and making plan for the seasons to come, but I have something to share – a gift of sorts from my best childhood friend, Dylan Trivette, who happens to be a gifted filmmaker. He’s been chronicling this year in our lives as part of a larger project and this first chapter speaks to the anxiety and excitement of that first day in ways more eloquent than I could ever hope to be.

13 comments

  • October 5, 2013 at 9:47 am // Reply

    “It gives him wrinkles in his forehead”… But this gave me “Smiles in my Heart”

  • October 5, 2013 at 3:53 pm // Reply

    This is so lovely. You both are so lovely. I hope to one day meet your munchkin. Congratulations and I am sending all my love to you. xo

  • October 5, 2013 at 4:44 pm // Reply

    Beautiful

  • October 5, 2013 at 11:02 pm // Reply

    you guys… this is amazing! kudos to your friend, he is indeed an incredible film maker. but i love seeing your story. i’ve gotten tidbits over the years… but this was beautiful. congrats to you both for following your hearts, wherever they lead you.

  • October 6, 2013 at 6:51 am // Reply

    I want to thank you for sharing your amazing story. It is such a pleasure to watch this whole thing grow. I hope Dina brings the baby in when she gets her hair done sometime.
    David

  • October 6, 2013 at 2:15 pm // Reply

    beautiful!! looking forward to viewing the rest of the adventure :)

  • October 6, 2013 at 4:32 pm // Reply

    Beautiful…just beautiful. Wishing you and your family every happiness!

  • October 6, 2013 at 8:25 pm // Reply

    Erik – this backstory is terrific. You are giving your following a real connection to what it will take for all of us to get on a real sustainbility track. We look forward to the next installment, and we hope to share more with you on how our campaign is helping this track forward too!

    Rob and I crossed paths with you for the first time just a little more than a year ago, on Oct 21st, to celebrate Kim’s birthday. What a year it has been!

    our best – Polly and Rob Rich

  • October 6, 2013 at 10:08 pm // Reply

    Gotta love a Katie Cole-Wendell Berry mash-up voiceover. Katie, find a place for that on your resume.

  • October 7, 2013 at 3:39 pm // Reply

    Erik, Love the video, your friend did a great job! Congrats too on your own piece of earth to nurture, one step at a time, right? Mr. Berry’s voice mail should reinforce the importance and validity of what you are doing.

    I’m looking forward for PnS Part II, please don’t make me wait too long on the next video installment…

  • October 14, 2013 at 6:03 pm // Reply

    I saw this when you first posted it, but I waited to watch the video until I had quiet space and time to watch it and savor it. I knew it would make me cry. I don’t pretend to know the full weight of the sacrifices you’ve made, the disappointments you’ve gritted your teeth against and survived, and the joys you’ve experienced. But I know something of what it feels like to live at an excruciating distance from the one you love, and to wonder desperately whether you’re doing the right thing. I’m so humbled that I’ve had the opportunity to know you two, and I’m so proud of both of you–of how strong you are, how thoughtful you are, how loving you are. And Wendell is amazing. I can’t wait to meet him in person.

  • October 31, 2013 at 6:38 pm // Reply

    This is really beautiful. Thank you for sharing like this! I hope to cross paths up in New England one of these days. Much love- Sarah “corn”

  • August 11, 2014 at 10:10 am // Reply

    Congratulations

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